Goodbye 2017

It is the last day of the year 2017. I am thinking of the 365 days past. I am contemplating what the New Year may bring. I have no crystal ball. Nobody has an answer. If we are a few billion people with a brain on this planet, every single one has different hopes, wishes, and beliefs. I am trying to write a blog that means something, possibly something that touches a nerve in everyone. Everyone? Who am I kidding! I can but try. And try I will.

New Year’s Eve: We celebrate and make a lot of noise. We make New Year’s Resolutions, resolutions that will be broken within the next few weeks or even days because ‘life happens.’ Something always gets into our way to do what we set out to do, want to do or planned to do. We woke up with a thought to write a fantastic blog – someone asked to do something else, and everything changes. The mood, sometimes even the energy is gone. What we really wanted to say changed. The moment, that magic moment, when you felt just right to do this one thing, is gone.

Looking back on 2017, it was a troubled year. Worldwide, politically and for me, even personally. But what is my personal pain compared to the pain of thousands of people fleeing their homes with just the cloth on their back, children starving, soldiers raping helpless women, beheading or killing well-meaning men? The worst is that all of this is done in the name of religion. Did anybody choose to born a Muslim, a Christian or a Jew? Or belonging to any of the many other denominations? How many Gods are there? I always thought there was but ONE, and he is a loving God, not one who spews hate and fire at one particular group that tries to kill another group. Who’s side is HE one when soldiers in war pray for victory? I’m reminded of a little story:

A zebra goes to see God. He asks ‘Lord, am I white with black stripes or am I black with white stripes?’

God looks at the zebra and says: ‘That depends entirely on how you see yourself.’

I like to see it not just depending on color but ‘how we see ourselves.’ Has HE given humanity ‘free choice’? A choice to do what is right? HE doesn’t get involved in humanity’s foolishness. Someone on Facebook asked ‘How can God let this happen?’ and another answered that HE may have turned his back on us because we don’t allow HIS name in schools, and we try to banish him from our lives. It’s troublesome to think about all this. And, maybe it is better not even to write about it. I stepped into a wasp’s nest once when I wrote an article for a newspaper questioning different parts of the bible and mentioned Emmanuel Kant’s Philosophy. It was also a New Year’s write-up, and boy, did I touch many nerves! The Newspaper had a hay-day with all the pro- and contra letters for weeks!

What do I look back to, personally? Problems with my health, physical problems that affected me mentally. I got depressed but tried hard to pretend all was alright. I had a terrible time getting to work on my sequel to my memoir “We Don’t Talk About That.” In that book, I was honest and told how it was, and I couldn’t find a way to tell what happened to me and my life after those first thirty years. I thought of all the things I still had to do, wanted to do and never got around to do. I went through all my files, sorted, destroyed and found papers I didn’t want to go into the wastebasket after I’m gone. I found poems I had written over many years, mostly funny ones, many with double meanings, my goodness, actually a history of human life during the years starting around 1960! Reading these gave me hope and smiles back, and a will to do something with them. My little book “Ein Mensch von Gestern – Heute” was born. It’s in my first language, German, but there are still a lot of people who do speak it. The title means “A Human from Yesterday – Today.” The story of how we people from yesterday cope with life as it has changed since yesteryear. Hahaha, and now we are back to today, the last day of 2017.

Did I have moments when I thought of stopping the time from flying? Yes, there were some. But how do you stop time? With a stopwatch? Heh, buddy, it doesn’t work that way.  Every breath you take is part of a second that moves time forward. Did you ever read Goethe’s ‘Faust’? The first two lines inspired me this morning to write about it. Here is part of Dr. Faustus’ conversation with Mephisto about time:

“If to the moment, I shall ever say
‘Oh, linger on, thou art so fair!’
Then may you fetters on me lay.
Then I will perish, then and there!
Then may the death-bell toll recalling,
Then from your service you are free;
The clock may stop, the pointer falling,
And time itself be past for me!”

The answer of the devil, Mephisto, was a warning. Faustus should not be hasty with his wish, but if so, he wanted it in writing, signed with blood. Maybe here we find a base for what we often say nowadays: ‘Be careful what you wish for, you may get it!’

       Happy New Year to all of you! I love you, my readers! I love people!
A big hug for all!

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About gmroeder

Author: - there was so much I never talked about and now, that my memoir "We Don't Talk About That" is written I can't stop talking about it. And the reviews I get are awesome; so I think this book needed to be written. Interesting that I receive many e-mails from people who read the book and now tell me their similar stories... Did I open "a can of worms?" I think there are so many people who carry a heavy memory load and they do need to "unload". But interesting enough, even more people want to know MORE of my life and therefore I am working on a sequel.

7 thoughts on “Goodbye 2017

  1. Love your posts Giselle…you inspire people so much…thank you for being part of my life…Happy New Year…wishing you and Trevor good health and happiness in 2018…hugs Len & Adele

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  2. Wonderful post! Well chosen words! I hope the year 2018 will be full of happiness and health for you and your beloved ones!
    Frohes neues Jahr, liebe Gisela 💜


  3. Dear Giselle, I so enjoy your writing, with your wit, your intelligence in expressing so well, with your honesty, your love is so evident to me, with your realness most of all! For that is what speaks to the hearts of pretty well all of us, if we are not afraid to do so ourselves. I enjoyed meeting you at that networking meeting where i pushed forward to get to you quickly to meet you then to get your two books. which i did, with joy in my heart. You may remember me, being fairly crippled up and selling some Avon, when you had to bring the signed books back to me nd we had a nice chat together for a short while. It was my high lite to receive them signed to me as well from you.i arrived home with them in my hot crippled up hands to show my husband what i had bought at this meeting. I was so excited to show him. as I love true stories and those that have shown such courage in the storms of their lives as you have done. i spotted you at this meeting and knew i wanted to meet you. well i did and i am so grateful i did i have your great blog to read. i hope to have coffee with you one day at my home or in yours to share together. Incidentlay i did read tht one story you ad written in the one book that was not a true story but you won awards with it to a small part of my family, my son Brad and his wife Janet and their two children now adults and we enjoyed that story about the angels on Christmas morning we read it. so thank you for that one story it is one i will want read every Christmas for sure. Take good care dear Giselle.. please check out my card i gave to you with my phone number email etc.. o.k.. with warm hugs and love to you May 2018 be a joyous year for you with improved health in many ways.. mine is getting somewhat better too now. God Bless You oxxoxoxo


  4. The Old Year’s past, Giselle, so here’s to a happy and fulfilling New Year!


  5. Happy New Year Giselle, Hope 2018 is good to you and that we see you at Tale Spinners. I miss your company, bosom pal!! Claudette >


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